Ummm, I don’t know from where to start. 2008 is considered the worst yeasr ever for me. I don’t recall my cheerful spirit and ambitions as low as they were in 2008. I am talking workwise in this post because familywise, it was great.
Familywise, this year was one of a kind thanks God. I got over my wedding panic attacks. I started having these panic attacks after dad’s death. I attended 2 weddings only in the passed three years. I went there just because my mom asked me so. I felt obliged to go since my mom is the only thing left for me after dad. I had two panic attacks 5 minutes after I entered those weddings. Call me selfish but I couldn’t bear happiness in people’s eyes when my dad is in his grave. Afew weeks ago, I attended my cousin’s wedding. I was afraid that I will end up with a panic attack where I feel breathless and unable to talk. Thanks God, it went O.K. I stayed there for almost an hour. I was sitting all the time but that’s a great accomplishment by itself.
Oh, my relationship with mama became stronger for I was dad’s doll all the time. I admit I wasn’t close to her but that doesn’t mean we weren’t in good terms. I have always loved her and now I love her more and regret not being close to her in the past.
It was a happy year also when my brother finally decided to get married. He is in his late 20s but he didn’t want to get married earlier because of dad’s death. Since he is the eldest, he became the responsible about us. You can imagine how hard it would be for a guy who became all of a sudden responsible about a big family. The gorcery agony is enough by itself. He proposed to my cousin who is a very beautiful and bright girl. The marriage will be next year and from now we started thinking about the wedding cermony and the dresses we will wear and and and.
There was sad event that overwhelmed. Ahmed, my sweetest brother was diagnosed with diabetes. We were all shocked for he is just 22 years old! He has never complained about it nor had its symptoms.I didn’t even believe it for Ahmed is to be a nutrition and he cares a lot about food. Mama was devastated the most. That kept her sleep deprived for months, she is till now! Mama knows what is it to be diabetic for she is diabetic and dad was diabetic as well and suffered a great deal.
Workwise, it is the suckiest thing ever! Ask me how many times I decided to resign, I will tell you “Do the math,”!! I am not racist but there is this one nationality that I detest the most. I am not going to tell you what is it but it’s the country of liars and hypocrisy! Sadly, I am damned to work with them 24/7!! I can’t bear liars and hypocrites and abra kadabra I woke up to find myself surrounded by a flood of lies! I am afraid I will turn double faced myself. I really wanna leave them. I know they will suffer a lot after I leave for I know every tit and tat there and my students are so attached with me. However, I don’t wanna leave them and have empty pockets! I want to guarantee a better workplace before I spit on them and leave them lol. But the question is, where!! I have searched for may places but still!!
I won’t write a wish of list but I just hope for my higher degree to be pursued soon, find a better job opportunity that is not wrapped with lies, and the last thing which is engraved in my heart to come true ;D
Looking forward to a better and fruitful 2009 only if God says so 🙂
Happy New Year everybody 🙂