Eid

September 30, 2008 at 12:26 am (Uncategorized)

Tomorrow is Eid!! Did I forget to tell you that I am not happy!!

I am not a big fan of it anyways. I have started hating it since I lost my dad. Yes, I don’t celebrate it because there is no Eid without dad!! I know it’s muslim’s Eid and that celebrating it is a must for  but I can’t see myself in it, happy and cheerful as well!! I have been having this feeling for two years now  and I don’t think I will get over it!!

Deep inside, I don’t wanna enjoy it. What’s the use ,eh? There is no taste of joy whatsover in it for me. I have become homey ever since. I haven’t been to parties, weddings, whatever is the thing that might cause joy  to people but sadness inside my heart!!

The only time I succumbed to mom’s will ended up with failure. I went to my cousin’s wedding 10 months ago. I was shaking like a leaf at the entrance. I went inside and my legs were hardly carrying me. The moment I entered, my family memeberes came to greet me expressing how glad they are to see me. I felt nothing but that the Earth was moving!! I couldn’t bear it and I collapsed!! Mom became sadder more and felt sorry for pushing me into it.

Dad, I miss you 😦

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My Secret Admirer

September 28, 2008 at 4:12 pm (Uncategorized)

To my sick secret admirer,

Thanks alot for the love you’re showing towards me. I am really flattered with all those sweet  words of yours. However, I need to clarify one thing for you. I am not lesbian. I am 100% straight. I do cherish friendships  and love making friends but the CLEAN type only.

P.S. Since you keep yourself anonymous, that means one thing only which is you knowing deep inside that what you’re doing is wrong!! I really wish you guidance from God.

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My avatar

September 21, 2008 at 5:35 pm (Uncategorized)

 

Yep, that’s me. I am shocked  from the resemblance between us by the way lol

It’s like a game guys. I did mine and my nieces as well. We had a blast doing it

Wanna make yours, visit this site :

http://www.faceyourmanga.com

Try it 😉

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Married women, SHAME ON YOU!!

September 19, 2008 at 12:03 am (Uncategorized)

 

 

Yes I am ANGRY and sorry my sister but I can’t let it go!!

I am really pissed off!!

I really can’t think of an answer but you might have!!

Why do married women “not all” BUT MOST breastfeed their babies in shopping malls and public places??!!

Isn’t there anything called bottled milk?!!

OK, if you’re so against it, so caring mashalla to guarantee your baby a good health, why don’t you cover your BOOBS while breastfeeding!! Why don’t go to a female place or even the mosque to nurish your baby!!

It really disgusts me and make me feel like puking!!

I ran by this lady today when I as shopping. She was an over-weight lady breastfeeding her 3 months old baby in front of 100 people if not more!!

The problem was that her boobs were shown and yes the nipples for sure!! Two guys were looking at her in hunger!! You know what I mean!! I really felt like going to her and telling her to do it somewhere else!! However, I was stopped by my sister who said that it is useless in such cases!!

To you my bloggers, what disgusts you most?

 

 

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A Child Called “IT”

September 17, 2008 at 5:25 pm (Uncategorized)

 

I have bought this story two days ago and I am almost finishing it!! I have never done this before but the story is really awsome. It gives you that strong urge to continue it!! From the title you can percieve suffering!! Yes, a suffering of a child.

I was surprised to know when I was googling it that it is the real story of the writer himself!! I can never imagine there is such cruelty in this world!!

About the Author

Dave Pelzer entered foster care at the age of 12 due to the severe abuse he endured at the hand of his alcoholic mother. The abuse became so terrible that she actually started referring to Dave as “The Boy,” instead of a child, her son, or Dave. At the age of 18 Dave aged out of the foster care system and joined the U.S. Air Force.

Dave has won many awards and personal commendations from Presidents Reagan, Bush, Clinton, and George W. Bush. In 1993, Dave was honored as one of the Ten Outstanding Young Americans. In 1994, he became one of the only United State’s citizens to be awarded as the Outstanding Young Persons of the World, for his efforts in teaching about child abuse and it’s prevention. Dave is also the author of The Lost Boy, A Man Named Dave, The Privilege of Youth, Help Yourself, and Help Yourself for Teens.

So far, those were the passages that really killed me!!

For my punishment, I wasn’t allowed to go with Father and my brothers to the super slide. I sat on a chair in a corner, shivering, hoping that somehing would happen so the three of them wouldn’t leave. I knew Mother had something hideous on her mind. As soon as they left, she brought out one of Russell’s soiled diapers. She smeared the diaper on my face. I tried to sit perfectly still. I knew if I moved, it would only be worse. I didn’t look up. I couldn’t see Mother standing over me but I could hear heavy breathing.

After what seemed like an hour, Mother knelt down beside me and in a soft voice said, “Eat it”.

*Later that night, after I finished all of my evening chores, Mother had me stand by the kitchen table while she and Father talked in the bedroom. In front of me was the bowl of hot dogs that I had vomitted!!. I couldn’t look at it, so I closed my eyes and tried to imagine myself far away from the house. A short time later, Mother and Father stormed into the kitchen. “Look at this, Steve,” Mother barked, thrusting her finger in the direction of the bowl. “So you think The Boy is through stealing food, do you?”

By the look on Father’s face, I could tell he was getting moe and more tired of the constant “What has the boy done now?” routine. Staring at me, he shook his head in disapproval and stammered, “Well, Roerva, if you would just let The Boy have something to eat,”

A heated battle of words broke out in front of me, and as always, Mother won. “EAT? You want The Boy to eat, Stephan? Well, The Boy is going to EAT!! He can eat this, Mother yelled at the top of her lungs, shoving the bowl towards me and atomping off to the bedroom.!!!

Do you think there will be more misery!! It’s really torturing!!

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A lot like love

September 16, 2008 at 8:10 pm (Uncategorized)

I haven’t watched such a romantic movie since ages!! I really loved every single detail and couldn’t part my laptop for a single minute lol

Since I loved it, I am sure you are gonna love it as well my dear boggers especialy the romantic type.

P.S. I am shocked how come this movie is 2005 though I haven’t heard about it before!!

The same actress “Amanda Peet” with her killing blue eyes is the one who acted in “Griffin and Phoenix”. She is really adorable and super sweet!!

Sorry but if you haven’t watched “Griffin and Phoenix” till now then allow me to say, you  HAVEN’T WATCHED ANY ROMANTIC MOVIES AT ALL!!

P.S. The sound tracks in both movies are AMAAAAAAAAAAAZING. You girls, prepare your kleenex box while watching “Griffin and Phoneix” ;D

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Supporting Children with Cancer!!

September 15, 2008 at 5:58 pm (Uncategorized)

It’s really a nice touch from them!!

A visit to Applebee’s  which might cost you 20RS will be sent to King Fahad National Centre for childrens Cancer Centre and Research. Moreover, you will be getting 10% discount on your coming visit!!

It’s the Holy Month everybody so sieze the chance 😉

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Do you believe in it!!

September 11, 2008 at 7:10 pm (Uncategorized)

I am really angry, not exactly angry but upset!!

I don’t know how to explain this but I have been followed by an evil eye long time ago!! It’s still haunting me!! I don’t know what to do!!

I remember when I joined my recent work now, everybody was shocked!!

They were like “Howcome you got accepted when your work experience is teaching KG only,”!!. Teaching kids is something that I have never and will never regret doing!! It has changed my life drastically!!

The story started from here. I remember 2 years ago while I was going to work, my driver had two accidents!! He had never had any but he had two with me!! And where!! Once near to my work and the 2nd was right infornt of the gate!! I was injured with bruises in my chest and both hands.!! I didn’t believe I made it because I really felt I was farewelling!!

Once, it was my break at the uni, I went to buy some coffee from Jofrey’s since we have it already at work. I was holding the tray which which had two cups of cuppuchino when I was going out!! I couldnt believe what happened!! I hit the glass door!! You can imagine the rest of the story!! My chest and hands were burned severly!! The accident occured infront of 30 of my students who were at the dining hall that time!!

I wasn’t embarrassed at all but it was burning me!! I went to my colleague who helped me by putting come ice on my hands!! Imagine it happened 5 minutes before my break was over!! Everyone told me not to go to the class but I didn’t listen!! I went inside with a burning chest and a reddish hand. It was one of the toughest days ever because my right hand was badly burned and I was using it all the time to write on the board!!

I was once in the rest-room washing my hand when I slipped and hurt my back!! I have never slipped in my entire life!! What the hell was happening then!! You know what accompanies the bakc then!! Yes, the neck!! I wasn’t able to turn to the left or the right for weeks!! It was really too much for me!!

I started reading Quran verses on me before going to work and did all what mom told me!! I felt I became better but still, it is haunting me!!

I bought a mobile 7 months ago. N81 to be precise. I really love it and enjoy using it as an Ipod too since its volume is really high and it has many amazing features!!

After less than a week from buying it, I started hearing buzzing whenever I dialed a number or even recieved a call. I sent it for repair and they told me something is wrong in the engine and fixing it will take 10 days!!! 10 days and I didn’t even use it for 6 days!! It was fixed and I got it back!!

2 weeks later, it started rejecting the memory card!! I was really upset, sent again for repair and I was totally the memory was burned!! How the hell did it get burn if it was inside the mobile all the time!! I said OK and bought a new one!!

3 weeks ago when I was abroad, my mobile was ringing. I took it out from my bag to answe and was shocked to see half of the screen black!!! I freaked out and hung up on the caller!! I didn’t mean it but I was really out of mind!! I turned off and then on thinking it’s a mistake somehow!! However, it was still there and after examining it, my brother told me that the internal screen is broken from side!! How broken if it was inside my pocken with nothing sharp or even metal to hit it!!

I landed home and sent AGAIN for repair. I paid 250SR for that though it was supposed to be under the warrantee!!

Afew hours ago, it fell down from me. I tried to turn it on but it kept on saying “Insert SIM card”!!!! It has been hours now and still no avail!!! I am really pissed off!! Why the hell do people enjoying envying others!!

It’s only a moblie not even the one with a diamond on it or gold!!

Do you really believe in evil eyes? Do you believe in wearing a blue bead to prevent such evils from happening!!

 

P.S I have started wearing a blue bead necklace a month ago. I do strongly believe it prevents such evil deeds!!

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I need an outlet :(

September 10, 2008 at 5:09 pm (Uncategorized)

 

I have been feeling really blue today 😦

I didn’t do anything worong, didn’t harm anybody, and kept my smile on all day long at work though my headaches were really killing me!!

The question I beg for its answer is:

Would you prefer to deal with a person who is frank with you or someone who keeps things hidden from you by keeping them in his/her chest which will probably create grudges!!??

The reason why I am asking this is because I am an open person!!

I say the things I feel outloud. I tell people how I feel after doing something to me whether bad or good!!

Today, I told my bestest friend that I have been upset from her because she has been ignoring my phone calls and messages. I told her that I started to feel that we are not that close anymore and that she makes me feel that calling or texting is like a routine now!! I lost that sense, should I have lied!!

She was quiet for a while and then told me that if she has ever felt the same, she would have never told me that!!

I told her that I am “frank” by nature and then she was like “Oh, yeah”!! Then I hung up because I reached home by then.

I called her twice five minutes ago but she hasn’t replied nor called back until this moment!!

 

Shall I stop being frank if it means hurting the people I love!!

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Ughhh!!

September 9, 2008 at 7:57 pm (Uncategorized)

Today we had an INTRUDER at work!! Someone that I really disgust, nauseate, repel, revolt, sicken  because she merely shows off everything she does!!

I hate such type of pshycic peoplees, I call them ass-lickers because this is mainly their job!! Sorry, but I am too frank!!

Why the hell do you come from the start!! What made me pissed off more is that since she holds a position at another branch from our UNI, she came and started applying some rules and changing some things as well!!

Don’t ask me, I haven’t even listened to a word from what she said!! I sat with this person once in a conference and that conversation we had showed me how trivial she is!! I was just wishing my boss could hear us so that he get to know the real SHE!!

“K” sorry if I sounded or will sound rude to you but there is something you need to know about me!!

I HATE HYPOCRISY!! I CAN’T STAND IT!! IT SHOWS ON MY FACE WHEN I AN SITTING OR TALKING TO PEOPLE THAT I DON’T LIKE!! SO, LIVE WITH THAT OR GET LOST, UNDERSTOOD!!

 

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